Everyone you will ever meet knows something you don’t.
Did you ever make plans to do something and then wish it could be changed (and not by you)? I’ve committed to a meet-up group tonight to play mah jongg. There are almost twenty members of this meet-up and there will be four at tonight’s event, including me.
When I attended an Introduction to Mah Jongg seminar at the local Jewish center at the end of last year, I found myself excited and eager to learn how to pay the game, meet some new friends, and test my brain power. The Jewish center offered an eight-week class for about $175 and I was going to sign up. Then I found this meet-up. They get together at a local restaurant for two hours every Wednesday night and it doesn’t cost anything (except food if you choose to buy it).
The meet-up organizer confirmed my attendance last night. Then this morning, I read that another location of the restaurant at which we’re meeting had closed. I called to confirm that indeed tonight’s location is still open (yes, it is), but I have to admit I felt a tiny bit of relief that tonight’s class might be cancelled.
What the hell is wrong with me? I’ve been inside all day, doing laundry, reading, and going through a stack of magazines. It looks nice and crisp outside (I might have to put on sweater tonight!) and I’ll be doing something fun. Right? Meet new people? Check. Engage some brain cells? Of course.
Do I suffer from social anxiety? Am I afraid of what others might think or say about me? I’ve learned from several friends recently that they don’t like to leave their homes. Perhaps they have a fear of meeting strangers. Maybe they’re afraid of something physically happening to them when they’re not in their comfortable surroundings. Our anxiety is often worsened when we to try to avoid it or fight against it. We need to acknowledge that we’re nervous, and that that’s okay. “Confidence isn’t the absence of fear; it’s taking the action in spite of the fear.”
So I will just get out of the house and into an environment with people I might actually want to talk to. Put myself in the right frame of mind. Tonight is not a night to sit on the couch and watch Jeopardy. (I’ll record it and watch it tomorrow.) I can fold the laundry tomorrow. And tomorrow, I may be a mah jongg champion.